"Life is so unfair", that's what everyone was saying including me. Last year, my life is like a rainbow filled with glowing colors. I was with the people I really loved, my friends, family and God. Then, my life became miserable since I went in this place I called Hell. The grey houses, the boring faces, the soundless sound and everything was so worthless. But I'm happy I can breathe and sometimes, it makes me wonder. Is it worth breathing anymore?
I feel like I want to kill somebody and I want to kill myself. I never really expected a life like this. I thought I would be happy, I thought I would meet friends to make me happy, I thought I would bound happily with my family here. All those thoughts were wrong. I never meet friends who make me happy but i did make friends but they just make it real worst. Those friends were boring with their blank face staring and thinking of nothing. They're so different than my real best friends who were happy, awesome, cool and great. And my family here, they're really different than I thought. I don't even think family is a right word for them.
I know my life will turn out to be good someday. For now, it's just like a test from God if I can really handle a situation like this or I would just give up and plan a silent suicide. Even though I'm not with the great people I know right now, I know I'm with the good, great and only God. With all this suffering, God never leave me. I just really wish the life that was like a rainbow would come back and the miserable life that I'm experiencing right now would vanished.
